to tattoo or not? quote bro Hong!

me went, me saw, me likey!

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big brother Hong just told me this thru msn. and it's so damned true!

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"and well... the Bible doesn't contradict. people do XD so well... by your own understanding and prayer"

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we were discussing on the issue of whether it's wrong for a Christian to get a tattoo.

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well... personally, i WOULD want to get a tattoo some time in the future, but with biblical meanings and reasons behind it. and no, no skulls, daggers, snakes, or any devilish/hippie symbols. just something Christiany and straight to the point :]

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bro Hong also said...

"by praying, you should get ur answer coz well, God can use anything. anything at all and make it useful in any way we can never imagine"

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"the real question is just... so... after you get it, what will you be doing with it?"

(this part of the conversation really got me)

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i checked out this topic online. googled it and got this page...

http://www.inplainsite.org/html/christian_tattoos.html

this page shows the argument of tattoos for Christians on both sides. the "ok" and "not ok" for Christians to get a tattoo. really interesting bit and highly recommended for anyone (Christians or not) to read for better understanding. so read it before u come to me, shoving in my face how bad getting a tattoo is. i'll slap you if u do lol.

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my conclusion after reading the article...

i'll pray about it and really think things over. how can i use my tattoo (if i ever get one) to touch people's lives? if there's a green light, yeap, i'll get one.

God, this tattoo thing is so friggin relative at this point.

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i my sound radical to some people in this, but hey, that's just me :/

what kind of a tattoo i want? PM me and i'll tell you heheh.

when one of God's blessings come thru :]

me went, me saw, me likey!
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i love u guys :]

grown...

me went, me saw, me likey!

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this whole week spending time in kuching made me realize a few things. most of them of how much i've changed and how much things have not changed at all back here in sarawak. social-wise, that is.

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is it a good thing to grow up too fast? earlier than u're supposed to be, sooner than expected?

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i came back from selangor and straightaway joined in with the teenage youths from church for the weeklong YC (Youth Convention) held in Kuching this year. it's my 4th YC and i guess it was a wrong choice to go for it this year due to personal reasons sigh.

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what i couldn't help but notice was that i couldn't mix with the the youths anymore - striking conversations that don't last long and just taking things at a hi-bye level. dammit, it's saddening.

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i realized that it's because i personally think that the kind of stuff they like talking about and the kind of jokes they like cracking around are stale and lame. but thinking so told me that what if i was the one who grew up too fast during my time in selangor thus, made me... no longer interested in these kind of things. and no, it's not that i look down on them or anything bad like that. thing is, i'm just not interested, period.

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so i stayed quiet and kept to myself during the whole trip.

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personally, i dont think it's a wrong thing to grow up. we all do, one way or another and it's only natural to want to progress in maturity. but why this feeling of forlorn? maybe it's cause i kinda also miss the laughs we once had when i was still around before college started.

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but i know tho, that if i want to stick around with the Youths, i have to learn how to re-adjust. to head back to knowing how stuff works around here back in miri, back in church here. it might be hard to lower down my expectations and practice massive amounts of humbleness to attend to the Youths but hey...

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i'll do it :]

is it?

me went, me saw, me likey!
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if i find in myself desire nothing in this world can satisfy

i can only conclude that i was not made for here

if the flesh that i fight is at best only light and momentary

then of course i am nude when to where i'm destined i'm compared

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speak to me in the light of the dawn

mercy comes with the morning

i will sigh

and with all creation groan

as i wait for hope to come for me

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am i lost or just less found?

on the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?

is this a soul that stirs in me

is it breaking free

wanting to come alive

cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb

and avoid the impending birth of who i was born to become

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for we, are not long here

our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it

and i

i was made to live

i was made to love

i was made to know you

hope is coming for me

hope...

He's coming

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C.S. Lewis Song by Brooke Fraser

gone...

me went, me saw, me sad and stupid wei!

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it was only 2 nights ago when i had my last party this year here in selangor. my time studying here in taylor's has officially ended, i've graduated and am headed back home to boring old calm miri. i'm even at the LCCT terminal typing this now actually lol.

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Chun Hean was sending a bunch of us back to subang and it just dawned on me that i was leaving and it was real soon. like REAL SOON, ONLY 3 DAYS MORE. shit shit shit shit shit. imma be missing selangor so much and imma be missing all my frns here too. well, half of them are leaving for USA in Jan and we agreed to meet up for a road trip in the USA later in May or August haha!

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i was sitting by the window, winded down and wind blowing past.

it was 4am, a clear road.

i stuck my hand out, and remembered how it all began with selangor.

the indecisiveness, the fear, the anxiousness when deciding to come over to selangor.

the nervousness, anxiety of making frns and the number of hot girls around during my 1st few weeks lol.

the fun i started having, parties, clubbin, drinking (moderately as most of u would know), dancing, friends, acceptance, trials, sad, girls, mistakes, regrets, scores, assignments, A's, church, barbeques, B's, more dancing, music, bass guitaring, vocals on stage, ushering, stage crew, joining Lightbulb Productions (dance crew), Japanese classes haha, buffets, more alcohol, FTZ, chilling, JS mamak, Call Of Duty 4, roommates that came and went, money money money, melacca day trip (2 days before my final paper hahah!), langkawi (land of friggin cheap booze and ciggarettes i tell u!), absolute blackcurrant ;], fun, and more fun. there's just too much ;]

it's all gonna end.

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college's ended and i'm leaving.

we're all leaving and will leave soon enuf.

honestly, i wont enjoy miri as much because miri does not have the kind of friends i have back here in selangor.

everyone's stiff, paranoid of how others would think of each other, and ultimately conservative.

selangor's slack, chillin, spontaneous, adventurous, instant and fast paced.

my kind of place.

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i stuck my head out.
the wind coarsing violently against my face.
they dry up my eyes and i go sepet lol.
but i try to keep them open.
to savor this moment.
this moment of reminisence.

a reminder of what i'll be missing when i'm gone
of random reverence and beyond.
it says, "gone..."
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i'll be so restricted back there in miri.

the way i have fun.

the way i speak.

the way i act.

the way i eat lol.

the way i dance (more like no more dancing damn sad).

the way i handle things.

the extinction of my spontaneous privileges.

the way i worship God.

it'll all be friggin restricted and i wont be as happy as i am here in selangor.

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but i'll have to endure hey.

endure and adapt.

like i have done before here in selangor.

but i'll be back.

i'll be back to have fun with ya'll again.

1st thing during CNY i'll call everyone who're still around.

we're gonna party like we always did.

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i'll be up for monkey's banana cake :]

going for spontaneous ventures and parties with just a phone call.

chillin out at the mamak with frns and maybe fagging? heheh

i can't wait :]

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*i'm at the LCCT now and guess what? i F****** left my hand luggage at home! walau eh!!! damn chao hatt stupid lo! hailat jor! what the hell la me! my vodka's in my hand luggage la! and my new POLO leather shoes also! ahhhhh shitttttttttttttttttttttttt! luckily, by pure coincidence, Peter's coming over to the LCCT today as well to meet up with his dad. i'm just so glad i came online yesterday night and chatted with him hahah! he managed to get my stuff from the apartment and he's on the way here now. THANK YOU GOD! and now, imma wait for one helluva ass whoopin' from him lol! man, i owe him BIG.