gone...

me went, me saw, me sad and stupid wei!

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it was only 2 nights ago when i had my last party this year here in selangor. my time studying here in taylor's has officially ended, i've graduated and am headed back home to boring old calm miri. i'm even at the LCCT terminal typing this now actually lol.

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Chun Hean was sending a bunch of us back to subang and it just dawned on me that i was leaving and it was real soon. like REAL SOON, ONLY 3 DAYS MORE. shit shit shit shit shit. imma be missing selangor so much and imma be missing all my frns here too. well, half of them are leaving for USA in Jan and we agreed to meet up for a road trip in the USA later in May or August haha!

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i was sitting by the window, winded down and wind blowing past.

it was 4am, a clear road.

i stuck my hand out, and remembered how it all began with selangor.

the indecisiveness, the fear, the anxiousness when deciding to come over to selangor.

the nervousness, anxiety of making frns and the number of hot girls around during my 1st few weeks lol.

the fun i started having, parties, clubbin, drinking (moderately as most of u would know), dancing, friends, acceptance, trials, sad, girls, mistakes, regrets, scores, assignments, A's, church, barbeques, B's, more dancing, music, bass guitaring, vocals on stage, ushering, stage crew, joining Lightbulb Productions (dance crew), Japanese classes haha, buffets, more alcohol, FTZ, chilling, JS mamak, Call Of Duty 4, roommates that came and went, money money money, melacca day trip (2 days before my final paper hahah!), langkawi (land of friggin cheap booze and ciggarettes i tell u!), absolute blackcurrant ;], fun, and more fun. there's just too much ;]

it's all gonna end.

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college's ended and i'm leaving.

we're all leaving and will leave soon enuf.

honestly, i wont enjoy miri as much because miri does not have the kind of friends i have back here in selangor.

everyone's stiff, paranoid of how others would think of each other, and ultimately conservative.

selangor's slack, chillin, spontaneous, adventurous, instant and fast paced.

my kind of place.

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i stuck my head out.
the wind coarsing violently against my face.
they dry up my eyes and i go sepet lol.
but i try to keep them open.
to savor this moment.
this moment of reminisence.

a reminder of what i'll be missing when i'm gone
of random reverence and beyond.
it says, "gone..."
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i'll be so restricted back there in miri.

the way i have fun.

the way i speak.

the way i act.

the way i eat lol.

the way i dance (more like no more dancing damn sad).

the way i handle things.

the extinction of my spontaneous privileges.

the way i worship God.

it'll all be friggin restricted and i wont be as happy as i am here in selangor.

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but i'll have to endure hey.

endure and adapt.

like i have done before here in selangor.

but i'll be back.

i'll be back to have fun with ya'll again.

1st thing during CNY i'll call everyone who're still around.

we're gonna party like we always did.

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i'll be up for monkey's banana cake :]

going for spontaneous ventures and parties with just a phone call.

chillin out at the mamak with frns and maybe fagging? heheh

i can't wait :]

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*i'm at the LCCT now and guess what? i F****** left my hand luggage at home! walau eh!!! damn chao hatt stupid lo! hailat jor! what the hell la me! my vodka's in my hand luggage la! and my new POLO leather shoes also! ahhhhh shitttttttttttttttttttttttt! luckily, by pure coincidence, Peter's coming over to the LCCT today as well to meet up with his dad. i'm just so glad i came online yesterday night and chatted with him hahah! he managed to get my stuff from the apartment and he's on the way here now. THANK YOU GOD! and now, imma wait for one helluva ass whoopin' from him lol! man, i owe him BIG.