to tattoo or not? quote bro Hong!

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big brother Hong just told me this thru msn. and it's so damned true!

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"and well... the Bible doesn't contradict. people do XD so well... by your own understanding and prayer"

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we were discussing on the issue of whether it's wrong for a Christian to get a tattoo.

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well... personally, i WOULD want to get a tattoo some time in the future, but with biblical meanings and reasons behind it. and no, no skulls, daggers, snakes, or any devilish/hippie symbols. just something Christiany and straight to the point :]

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bro Hong also said...

"by praying, you should get ur answer coz well, God can use anything. anything at all and make it useful in any way we can never imagine"

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"the real question is just... so... after you get it, what will you be doing with it?"

(this part of the conversation really got me)

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i checked out this topic online. googled it and got this page...

http://www.inplainsite.org/html/christian_tattoos.html

this page shows the argument of tattoos for Christians on both sides. the "ok" and "not ok" for Christians to get a tattoo. really interesting bit and highly recommended for anyone (Christians or not) to read for better understanding. so read it before u come to me, shoving in my face how bad getting a tattoo is. i'll slap you if u do lol.

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my conclusion after reading the article...

i'll pray about it and really think things over. how can i use my tattoo (if i ever get one) to touch people's lives? if there's a green light, yeap, i'll get one.

God, this tattoo thing is so friggin relative at this point.

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i my sound radical to some people in this, but hey, that's just me :/

what kind of a tattoo i want? PM me and i'll tell you heheh.

when one of God's blessings come thru :]

me went, me saw, me likey!
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i love u guys :]

grown...

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this whole week spending time in kuching made me realize a few things. most of them of how much i've changed and how much things have not changed at all back here in sarawak. social-wise, that is.

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is it a good thing to grow up too fast? earlier than u're supposed to be, sooner than expected?

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i came back from selangor and straightaway joined in with the teenage youths from church for the weeklong YC (Youth Convention) held in Kuching this year. it's my 4th YC and i guess it was a wrong choice to go for it this year due to personal reasons sigh.

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what i couldn't help but notice was that i couldn't mix with the the youths anymore - striking conversations that don't last long and just taking things at a hi-bye level. dammit, it's saddening.

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i realized that it's because i personally think that the kind of stuff they like talking about and the kind of jokes they like cracking around are stale and lame. but thinking so told me that what if i was the one who grew up too fast during my time in selangor thus, made me... no longer interested in these kind of things. and no, it's not that i look down on them or anything bad like that. thing is, i'm just not interested, period.

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so i stayed quiet and kept to myself during the whole trip.

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personally, i dont think it's a wrong thing to grow up. we all do, one way or another and it's only natural to want to progress in maturity. but why this feeling of forlorn? maybe it's cause i kinda also miss the laughs we once had when i was still around before college started.

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but i know tho, that if i want to stick around with the Youths, i have to learn how to re-adjust. to head back to knowing how stuff works around here back in miri, back in church here. it might be hard to lower down my expectations and practice massive amounts of humbleness to attend to the Youths but hey...

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i'll do it :]

is it?

me went, me saw, me likey!
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if i find in myself desire nothing in this world can satisfy

i can only conclude that i was not made for here

if the flesh that i fight is at best only light and momentary

then of course i am nude when to where i'm destined i'm compared

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speak to me in the light of the dawn

mercy comes with the morning

i will sigh

and with all creation groan

as i wait for hope to come for me

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am i lost or just less found?

on the straight or on the roundabout of the wrong way?

is this a soul that stirs in me

is it breaking free

wanting to come alive

cause my comfort would prefer for me to be numb

and avoid the impending birth of who i was born to become

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for we, are not long here

our time is but a breath, so we better breathe it

and i

i was made to live

i was made to love

i was made to know you

hope is coming for me

hope...

He's coming

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C.S. Lewis Song by Brooke Fraser

gone...

me went, me saw, me sad and stupid wei!

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it was only 2 nights ago when i had my last party this year here in selangor. my time studying here in taylor's has officially ended, i've graduated and am headed back home to boring old calm miri. i'm even at the LCCT terminal typing this now actually lol.

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Chun Hean was sending a bunch of us back to subang and it just dawned on me that i was leaving and it was real soon. like REAL SOON, ONLY 3 DAYS MORE. shit shit shit shit shit. imma be missing selangor so much and imma be missing all my frns here too. well, half of them are leaving for USA in Jan and we agreed to meet up for a road trip in the USA later in May or August haha!

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i was sitting by the window, winded down and wind blowing past.

it was 4am, a clear road.

i stuck my hand out, and remembered how it all began with selangor.

the indecisiveness, the fear, the anxiousness when deciding to come over to selangor.

the nervousness, anxiety of making frns and the number of hot girls around during my 1st few weeks lol.

the fun i started having, parties, clubbin, drinking (moderately as most of u would know), dancing, friends, acceptance, trials, sad, girls, mistakes, regrets, scores, assignments, A's, church, barbeques, B's, more dancing, music, bass guitaring, vocals on stage, ushering, stage crew, joining Lightbulb Productions (dance crew), Japanese classes haha, buffets, more alcohol, FTZ, chilling, JS mamak, Call Of Duty 4, roommates that came and went, money money money, melacca day trip (2 days before my final paper hahah!), langkawi (land of friggin cheap booze and ciggarettes i tell u!), absolute blackcurrant ;], fun, and more fun. there's just too much ;]

it's all gonna end.

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college's ended and i'm leaving.

we're all leaving and will leave soon enuf.

honestly, i wont enjoy miri as much because miri does not have the kind of friends i have back here in selangor.

everyone's stiff, paranoid of how others would think of each other, and ultimately conservative.

selangor's slack, chillin, spontaneous, adventurous, instant and fast paced.

my kind of place.

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i stuck my head out.
the wind coarsing violently against my face.
they dry up my eyes and i go sepet lol.
but i try to keep them open.
to savor this moment.
this moment of reminisence.

a reminder of what i'll be missing when i'm gone
of random reverence and beyond.
it says, "gone..."
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i'll be so restricted back there in miri.

the way i have fun.

the way i speak.

the way i act.

the way i eat lol.

the way i dance (more like no more dancing damn sad).

the way i handle things.

the extinction of my spontaneous privileges.

the way i worship God.

it'll all be friggin restricted and i wont be as happy as i am here in selangor.

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but i'll have to endure hey.

endure and adapt.

like i have done before here in selangor.

but i'll be back.

i'll be back to have fun with ya'll again.

1st thing during CNY i'll call everyone who're still around.

we're gonna party like we always did.

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i'll be up for monkey's banana cake :]

going for spontaneous ventures and parties with just a phone call.

chillin out at the mamak with frns and maybe fagging? heheh

i can't wait :]

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*i'm at the LCCT now and guess what? i F****** left my hand luggage at home! walau eh!!! damn chao hatt stupid lo! hailat jor! what the hell la me! my vodka's in my hand luggage la! and my new POLO leather shoes also! ahhhhh shitttttttttttttttttttttttt! luckily, by pure coincidence, Peter's coming over to the LCCT today as well to meet up with his dad. i'm just so glad i came online yesterday night and chatted with him hahah! he managed to get my stuff from the apartment and he's on the way here now. THANK YOU GOD! and now, imma wait for one helluva ass whoopin' from him lol! man, i owe him BIG.

love

me went, me saw, me likey!

"And now, these 3 remain: Faith, Hope and Love. But the greatest of these is Love"
1st Corinthians 13:13
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3 bros hey

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this is another pic i found a while ago while skimming thru my photo archives. meet Abel Wong, my nerdy looking self back in highschool and Aaron Wong. my hair and nerdiness aside, i guess its safe to say that the 3 of us look alike hey. thing is, Abel and Aaron are both brothers but with me in between, i'm the youngest among the 3 and we're pretty tight together hey.

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how we met?

ahaha that's a funny story to tell. funny to us 3, that is. i was 12, UPSR just ended and i was being my naughty and bratty self, going around church, making fun of people and stuff. i didnt know the both of them then and i made fun of Aaron (haha) and he acted pissed and all. plus, Abel did a great job trying to hold him back from beating me up. i was pissed scared, ran off and hid in a corner lol. anyways, i came out, talked to them bit by bit, saw that we cliqued and hey, we became friends.

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what held us tight together was mainly the Youth Ministry in church which we had the 1st thing in common. we started hanging out, played table tennis together, jogged together, hung out at church together, went on trips together, did crazy stuff together, sat and talked about life, spiritual life, girls, God, friendships, relationships, family, future and everything in general then. it was fun hey, we grew up together, went thru stuff together, learned new stuff together and i guess the best part was that we expanded each other's view whenever we learned something new. ever eager to share and care. we hung out so much that people actually thought were 3 bros rather and 2 bros+1 friend lol.

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this was taken around... 5 years ago? hence the nerdy look :]

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we looked after each other's backs and we started a worship team along with Leonard (worship leader, guitar), Joseph (Drums) and Judy (Piano/Keyboard). Aaron played the bass guitar for the team, followed by Abel much after and I was the backup singer for the team. Practice was held every Saturday of the week and we practiced Christian praise and worship songs over and over again till we got the hang of things. we started off with zero talents and a 100% passion and rose up as one of the leading musicians and singers of our church. in just 2 years, it was confirmed by Pastor Christopher Long of SIB KL that we were as good as Planetshakers (he works directly with them). the youth ministry's worship team was thriving like mad! that was till things died out coz no one wanted to step up :/

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this was taken only 3 months ago, when i went back to Miri for a weekshort holiday :] i like my hair ;p

Abel still looks the same albeit a few gained pounds and Aaron has grown less fat and more buff while... his head's been dropping out on hair :/

Me? yeah, i was thinner then. a lil meaty now :p and hey, judge for yourself :]
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oh and i took this pic on the same day haha. one of their mom's charges. v cute :]

i'm grateful to have you both as my bros hey. imma make u guys jog ur asses off when i get back to Miri muahahahah!

shining...

me went, me saw, me likey!

been diggin thru my photo archives lately and came across a number of pics which have stories attached to it. this is one of them hey.

took this pic when i was visiting Bukit Tinggi along with my relatives here in Selangor. i was walking by the corridor of this huge castle like building when i noticed the intricate patterns of the railings. i knelt down to check out the patterns and that was when i saw that small street lamp, thru the middle of this particular pattern.

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immediately, i was reminded that hey, God's always here whenever i walk on a darkened path. He's always there, just like this street lamp, shining thru, ever waiting for us to come back to Him whenever we fall astray.

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i've done so many wrong things up till now and i'm sure there'll be more coming up in the future. but my God is always there, ever forgiving and ever willing to take me back whenever, wherever, and however screwed up i may become. i'm just really grateful that there IS always Him to depend on whenever everyone seems to give a cold shoulder.

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and i walked off, alone, along that darkened corridor, smiling to myself knowing that my God is always there, even when i cannot see... ever shining...

chillout

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now i just really feel like dancing to some smooth r&b hey. feels weird whenever i get sudden pangs of wanting to chillout and sway/pop to the music. but when i look around me, i'm in public and i nope, i still dont have the guts to dance in public lol. unless the atmosphere's there along with loud music+bass, people having fun just as i am, strobing lights, and friends to enjoy the time with. sigh* this will all be gone when i return to miri... :/ I WANNA DANCE!

crazy bunny daddy!

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was surfing the net when i came across this ahahahahah! i found daddy!

CRAZY DADDY BUNNY! :P

smiley :]

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saw this on the notice board of my program office. made minor adjustments and it finally smiled :] absolutely love this pic :] :] :] :]

this just reminds me of all the blessings i've had so far and i'm just so grateful that they came in so many different packages but came, nontheless. learned something new about myself on tuesday and it wasnt nescessarily a good thing abt myself but hey, i'm striving to be the best of who i can be :]

sigh...

me went, me saw, me likey!
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ever pondering

ever wondering

never forseeing

the pain that was being

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it took a pattern

that shone like a lantern

to reveal the wrong

the habits i've bourne

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and now i see

what i did with glee

was at the mercy

of the King of Glory

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i shall wait

no longer bait

to work in me

the man i'll be

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put hold i will

once my savage will

to right the deeds

that ever bleeds

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though it'll prevail

my feelings wail

but i will not

be the man i'm not

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so hopefully

just fleetingly

from this blight of me

into something that is to be...

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*sigh

of phones and mistakes

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i lost my phone last friday right after eating lunch. david, andrew and joel just ended their jamming session for ADP halloween party 08' and joined them for dinner. it must've dropped out of my beach pant's pocket coz the pocket gets lose now and then and there's only ONE pocket. ah crap crap crap crap! was sooo kan chiong coz my SIM still had RM200+ over to be used haha! but at that time, the guys were headed to Sunway Pyramid to buy some face paint for the party. so i went there, retrieved my SIM with all my credit intact (THANK GOD!) and bought a new phone all in a span of 2 hours after i lost my nokia lol.

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and i got a..... Sony Ericsson G900!!!

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dad wasn't so happy when he found out about the phone tho. i tried calling him and mom on their cells and just couldn't call thru during the whole 2 hours. dad almost went ballistic when he found out abt the price... which i stoned when he asked me why i spent so much money. ah shit, i don't know what to say.

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and i am SURE that my bugger of a frn CCZ will want to smother his huge, fugly, oily hands all over my new phone once i get back to miri. niamah, dun kacau k!

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anyways, time for some random pics i took a while back.
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necklace i got for my lil bro, Mark which he doesn't wear :(

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mine :]

- yeah, there're 2 crosses and the inner one spins a full 360 degrees
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i kinda like this pic tho, took a LONG time to get a good angle. heck, i don't even know if this is a right angle. anyone wanna enlighten me on that? :]

momolaw makes a comeback!

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oh wow, it's been 2 months since i've updated this dead blog lol. but i'm kinda sad now. u guys know that Chivas branded bag i got for free when i bought the bottle of Chivas? it's lost. well, someone stole it when i was playing pool at Club 9.

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lucky there wasn't anything important in it tho. keys can be duplicated and thumbdrive can be bought again. and i lost my Call of Duty 4 profile! heck, the time spent on that profile all wasted! but the thing is, i LOVE that bag! argghhh!

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anyways, remember last year's halloween party i had? the one i dressed up as a girl?

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yeah, halloween party 08' just was last weekend and this year i dressed up as a...

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3 year old! wheeee!

even made a sign for myself saying,
i r MOMO. i r 3 years old.
mommy left :(
FEed mE :)

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cost of this year's halloween... RM 3! for the pacifier lol! the singlet? mine. and the diapers...

well, everyone's been asking how i got them. honestly, their my grandma's ahaha! i actually called up my aunt, Aunt Connie, told her about my plan, visited grandma at the hospital along with her and she told me she'd help swipe one of grandma's diapers for me ahah! as i went out to buy the pacifier from the nearby pharmacy, Aunt Connie told grandma about my plan and when i got back, grandma was smiling and laughing at me ahahah! so i took that as a green light i use one of her diapers! real sporty for a 79 year old ey?

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thing is, the adult diaper was sized L and i'm a size M. so i had to make some adjustments here and there and ended up having a bulk of excess diaper in between my thighs, below my crotch. so yeah, u can actually guess that when i sat down to have dinner with my friends (dressed up nicely with sinlget and diaper underneath), my A-hole went numb was walking became a challenge for me lol! felt kinda embarassed tho, coz the diaper made my ass look so much bigger than it ady is when i had it under my beach pants.

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party went well and imma let the pics speak for themselves heheheh.

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PREPARATION

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gay bastard

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PARTY TIME

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miss dark fairy

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even the KKK was here

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miss anna banana! had her as my Speech 105 lecturer last semester!

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Haris, a newly made frn :]

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another gay bugger

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i like this pic lol

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desmond as his usual self, "LET'S ALL WEAR LALA!"

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yeah she was so lazy that she just wore her school uniform

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even Ronson came for the party!

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yuan-wei got so turned on by me hahah!

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aww he gave her flowers :)

and i had to walk thru the street in my diapers to his car with people staring to get the flowers

Jon, u owe me big time!

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pundek beggar

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bugger of a Ben Jin who didn't say anything abt being able to play drums so friggin well.

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band pic

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gay trio!! emo songs all the way!

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i don't even know who this girl is hey

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screamo weiii and a helluva good one!

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damn cun

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that night, she was a gypsy, a fortune teller and a gypsy fortune teller lol!

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last but not least:

baby momolaw to the rescue!!!